Ya, I know….

Its bin a while again

I was looking at my page and I saw the date on my journal and I was shocked at first to see that its almost been a year again, but not really. When do I really have time to write out a full journal on what’s happened in the many months since the last one.

I also spent a lot of time today looking through my old journals both on dev art and on live journal, (since dev for some reason deleted a lot of my old journals past 2006) after talking with an old guy friend of mine. It made me feel nostalgic and sad but kinda happy too.

I’m back in the city again after the summer, living in the house with the cusins and Rhys (my kidna sorta X but not really.) It was hard moving back at first, with the economic depression looming at the time, it was hard to find a job at first. I waited about 2 weeks until I started to looking, living off my savings and putting things together. Like a deep freeze, costo cards, baking cupboards and rest.

I applied at a temp agency to help find my some hard labour, or a warehouse job, but it took them to long to get back to me that I started at a Grocery store. I was there for a full month before I got a call back from the temp agency. They found me a job at a warehouse as an order picker. Its sounds shittier then it really is.

So for just over three months I was on pins and needles waiting to see if they would hire me on fulltime or axe me like so many of my brethren I had watched get walked off of the job. It made a lot of us nervous wrecks but the few of us that did make it to the end were so tight nit and worked so well as a team that all the agony was worth it. So needless to say I was recently hired on to the Century Vallen team as a ‘ermanent’ staff member. I make really decent money, and I have even better benefits, and perks. It makes me happy that I don’t have to worry about random medical expenses, and I can take paid vacas eventually. We social club deals where we can get cheaper movie tickets and swim passes, and we do big corporate events with sports teams in the summer too. GO TEAM VALLEN! ^__^V

But ya…that whats happening work wise

Life wise things are ok.

Rhys and my relationship is iffy… on paper, we’re not together… but we still act like we’re together.
Its like we’re married without the ring of paper. I really do love him, I could have his children…drop everything I was doing and run away with him if he asked. But its not the right timing yet, he’s still going to university…and he’s not ready to settle down. I never really know what he’s thinking any more. But I guess we’ll see what happens next month. He’s moving back home to work again, then after he’s moving into dorms. So no more living together.

In the mean time, because its kinda part of the weird relationship we’ve bin keeping, Ive bin half dating a guy from work. Just for something different, and some one to explore the city with. He’s a nerdy sweetheart and incredibly loveable. SO the summer wont be too lonesome for me, I’ll be busy going to every festival I can find.

As for living arrangements, if it hasn’t already been communicated I share half a duplex with 5 guys my age(2 of rhys cousins and a random guy). We’ve recently lost one… and gained a 55 year old guy, who seams senile and also slightly handicapped…
Needless to say I’m hardly impressed, considering when rhys moves out we gain another one similar to him. So 3 rowdy young alcoholic and drug abusing idiotic boys… 2 old senile half dead men… and poor me, all under on roof. If I could I’d move out in a flash. But that would mean I’d have to budget hardcore and miss out on all the fun stuff this summer. So I’ve finally decided to live in the purple room and give up. Its like my own personal sanctuary anyways, so why not make it my room like how its supposed to be. The bed not so comfortable but hey, that’s ok I bought the damn thing I better use it.

This is even weirder….

The past 2 months I’ve had a lot of my old guy friends confess to me that they had things for me when we were in high school. Which is almost a piss off now, I mean it took you that long to say something…GAH! I could have used the confidence boost then. But its ok I guess it makes me feel happy now. To know that I can still turn heads and what looked good on me. (like how my short hair used to make some of my guy friends cream jeans lols) Kinda sucks cause a lot of the guys who have confessed to me I had big crushes on and I even think I loved one of them at one point, bad timing I guess.

Lately I’ve bin feeling really sexy, I mean ya I’m a bit heavier then I used to be but to hear people say that I have shapely legs and that know how to dress to compliment my shape. I dress like hell when I’m working but when I got out I like to look good. BBW all the way!!

Idk I just wanted to share that all with who ever reads this, and also for myself because its nice to look back at journals like this.
But ya, sorry…it was a long one… -__-;
the sad part was there’s more to it all. This is just the general summery.

Here’s to hoping I have a happy summer. *cheers